I was so excited for Friday night. My hubby and I were going to party like we were a couple in their mid twenties basically meaning we were childless for a night as a grandma and grandpa offered their services for a night. Yay us! Oh so much fun was in store like - eating dinner when we wanted and no scheduling around our son's feedings and bedtime. We could be as loud as we wanted watching tv or talking. We could both just relax in separate rooms watch tv, listen to music, play on the computer and no one had to be on monitor duty or entertaining our lil' one. And we could watch a movie uninterrupted, together! Crazy times I realize. I picked up a treat after work and was driving home with a big smile on my face. I also had a lightbulb moment about my HealthFULL Journey to share with Corey. I have become obsessed with this journey and myself (my actions, my emotions, my troubles, me me me, my my my! Blech!) Focus equals great, intensity sometimes beneficial, obsession like Fatal Attraction means disaster! So Friday I tuned out of all "me" business and started to observe my surroundings and keep things positive. I planned my Friday to be fabulous and myself to be friendly. Oh I tried and fought my way through frustrating moments and kept my determination to turn outward, focus on my journey but stop obsessing about my bad luck. I people-watched at the library which was fantastic. There were some great people to observe. I delighted in other people's quirks. Let the Friday festivities begin as I walk into my house and before I can declare "let the good times roll". I notice the footstool out of place. Ummmm....Cor is everything alright? His response "Yeah". Mine: "Why is the footstool in the foyer?" His reply: "Oh it's really hot in here." Check thermostat - hmm yeah it's 84+ degrees in the house and the air conditioner is set on 70 that is pretty hot! So our romantic/fun night of freedom included the air conditioner man at our house at 8:30 at night, after we had 4 agencies on stand-by. So this last week we have had the plumber out and the air conditioner people while waiting for the roofers to call back about their availability. Awesome leaking roof, mushy carpet, and no air circulation. Fantastic! Still smiling world - try to pi** in my cheerios but I am gonna grit my teeth and grin! We got our movie in and the house officially began to cool. Simple fix that hubby of course suggested and I shot down instantly. So with my pizza I ate some humble pie. But Saturday is a new day. I was going to exercise and eat healthier. And FOCUS not obsess! I checked in with the grandparents and planned to work out before my son's arrival but realized how I could get some serious cleaning done with function of both arms and eyes. So I turned the work out into cleaning. In an hour I put away two loads of laundry, started another, swept, vacuumed, and played return - items scavenger hunt (returning items from one room to another and when entering drop off room gather items and return to their original spot. For instance 15 books had found their way into our bedroom that belonged upstairs, upstairs had loose socks, garbage, baby and dog toys, and so I returned the toys and then took big garbage outside). It felt so good to get little things checked off the to-do list and build up a sweat. I could have done exercise by following one of my new library DVDs (which I so excited to try). But because I was not obsessing on perfect HealthFULL Journey I could keep my focus but realize that yes I have other obligations. If this isn't to be a diet (which it is not) but a lifestyle change (which it is) then I have to incorporate my efforts and intentions into my real life. Yes there is time to pull out the DVD as some me time but there are other times to get creative. Everyday is a lesson on this journey because I am Finally Understanding Life by Living and that means to me to stop being an observer in this world and being an active participant.
May your HealthFULL Journey lead you to focus on what truly is important. May your journey help strengthen your awareness, awaken your passions, and lead you to true joy. 'Til we meet again. . .
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