Sunday, July 31, 2011

Shop 'Til I Drop

What a great family day today.  It is a rare gem when my hubby has off on a Saturday.  YAY!!! I told him two days ago that I wanted to have a family fun day on Saturday and get out of the house.  Because we both want to have fun and would love to leave the house.  But we have learned this whole family of three moves at a way different pace then a couple.  As a couple you can lounge and munch on snacks and semi discuss what would be fun to do.  Perhaps browse the web and giggle about events that don't pique our interest but delight that someone has to enjoy it for it to happen.  As a family of three, it is about getting chores done so the house functions (laundry, dishes, and basic clutter patrol), it is about making sure all people in the house are well-rested, that feedings are scheduled and will happen when needed, which means location is key.  It means double-checking the diaper bag, double-checking everyone's outfits (because who knows what surprise may lurk), and then by some miracle vacate the premises. So yes we have to discuss our spontaneous ventures at least two days in advance or it just isn't going to happen.

We have a beautiful downtown area that has a Farmer's Market on Saturday mornings.  We thought this might be a long shot.  To get us as a couple out the front door by 11 am on a Saturday was a challenge, but a family of three almost a lost cause.  Oh notice I said almost.  Because yes we did it.  The three of us were dressed for a public outing and prepared to see the world with the baby even squeezing in a morning nap.  All we had to do was walk around our giant dumpster blocking our garage and taking up our entire driveway.  Remember the boundaries blog.  Well life has gotten crazier.  I thought my boundaries were pushed that day.  Oh no, whole new level!  We needed our roof replaced as we had a mysterious drip drip sound within our walls when it rained.  And then we had spots appearing halfway along our wall.  Awesome!  This project was to take one day.  Ha ha!  They awoke me Thursday morning (when I didn't have to work until 12:30 pm) at 7:35 am (which means they also awoke the baby).  I have a dog barking her loudest, a baby wailing, and me trying to get ahead of the schedule.  Yes roofers come in to my life and shake it up because I have no stress.  One day I can do this.  Hmmm....by the time I arrived home I saw no one on the roof at four pm but five male adults lying in the shade strewed across my front yard (really interesting sight I have to say).  Do you think they were done?  No no no.  Granted it is crazy hot here, and I can't imagine how hot it is on the actual roof.  But by four pm and the roof isn't even half done, crazy guess this job will take longer than one day.  Surprise surprise, I win the prize.  Nope the roofers will be back Friday but done by lunchtime (for future reference when does your lunch start?).  We started this message that they would be back at 8 am (great that is when our son wakes up. Awesome!)  Oh wait haggling is happening between the roofers, the time is quickly moving to earlier times.  Wait wait do I get a say? Oh good 6:30 am, can't wait!  Our dog did not sleep through their arrival but our son did as they stapled right above his room.  Hmmm I guess that is a bonus?  And they did finish by 8:30 pm.  (Isn't that late for lunch, just curious?)  And the dumpster was to be gone by four today.  I guess the dumpster did not get the message at it still sits proudly in our yard.   Our roof looks great, our front yard looks like the pits, and I apologize to all the neighbors and postman as we continue to take up the street spots with our vehicles.  Also as we had roofers in our yard, on our roof, we also had the drywall contractor in our house.  Yay for boundaries, I am doing so good with them.  Sorry for the rant.  But it has been just nuts in this place.  Back to the Farmer's Market.

How much fun to leisurely walk down a quiet street (as all traffic is blocked so that the vendors can set up their wonderful treats and wares.)  There is something so comforting to see people selling their goods with such passion and pride.  The occasional sample is nice and the stories are so endearing.  We only picked up two finds (pear jam and garlic dip)  Both just spoke to our lil' trio.  Well maybe not the baby (though he does love pears :) but garlic has not quite crossed his palette.  And that stroller comes is very handy to stash our goodies.  Good work baby boy helping mommy and daddy out every way you can :)  We then ventured to run some errands to replenish the house of what we consider "essential" and a few "treats" along the way.  It just was so nice to spend time together in the fresh air, with lots of sunlight and then retreat into some delightful air conditioning where we could meander through the aisles: sharing opinions, critiques, and wants as we pass different items.  One of the buys is for next weeks new produce of the week.  You'll just have to keep your eyes peeled that blog to figure out the purchase;)  We then went home after a quick stop to pick out a special outfit for our li'l one as we have a special event to attend.  We were all a little tuckered.  There was still shopping to be done but had to pick up a couple of items to mail.  And all of us could use a little quiet nap time.

So the exercise today was shopping + tons of walking.  How crazy time flies when a) you are with people you adore/love/like, b)getting stuff accomplished without too much effort - check, check, check of the to do list and c) get a work-out in without feeling like time was stolen.  Super big major plus of the day.  It was a delightful day.

May your HealthFULL Journey lead you to delightful get-a-ways that aren't too far from home that bless your soul, mind, and body.  'Til we meet again. . . 

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Boundaries

Do you have well established boundaries?  Mine are all over the place.  Again the extremist emerges.  Some days, some hours, some minutes, sometimes even seconds my boundaries change.  I tell myself I love chaos and I love organization.  That is hard to love and be both those things.  So I tell myself I like chaotic organization or organized chaos.  Which makes me an oxymoron, but really most days it just makes me feel like a moron.  There are times my boundaries are so set in stone.  I have duties, I don't let people cross my path, and I do my thing.  But then other days I insist the dog and the cat need to sleep with us so that they don't feel unloved or punished.  That it is okay to help out a friend and have them live with us for undetermined amount of time.  To give and to give my time, money, items, attention, focus,  (I know I sound like I am up for sainthood, but then wait for it. . .) I SNAP!  I scream, I cry, I gasp for breath, I see red and rage, and literally freak out.  How could I be such a doormat?  How could everyone and the world  (because I am not rational at this point) be against me?  How can I do anything when I am so crowded?  Everyone is to blame (except me of course - because it is the world out to get me!)  But really?

It's all me.  I don't people or myself know when is enough?  Before I over-extend myself and push way past my limits.  I am human.  And most days I don't cut myself slack, but then on the flipside I really don't cut others slack which means I am overcritical of EVERYTHING and so when one of my boundaries is pushed when I am overextended it is like a rubber band being stretched until it breaks!  There are twenty-four hours in a day, no more, no less.  Many problems can't be fixed in a day, because they didn't reach their present state in a day (for example: my weight).  I have to focus on one task.  Even writing this blog my head has gone everywhere.  I am trying to pick at my health which some days isn't helping.  But to organize my life I do need to take the big clutter out.  And once the item is removed to establish boundaries to not reach that state again.  Do you ever do that?  Do you ever set a goal with a distinctive purpose; perhaps you clear out a space in your home, make time in your schedule, save a little extra money, or lose a couple of pounds and then never fulfill the purpose?  You take your hard work and in one swoop throw it away.  Its easy if we let the boundaries drop and let them fade away.  It isn't hard to take on an extra project at work when you made room in your schedule with the intent to spend more time with the family (whats a couple extra hours to put yourself in line for promotion?) Perhaps you were saving up for a rainy day account or a family vacation and decided to treat yourself to new outfit or mani/pedi or repair the broken tv.  Maybe you lost the weight for swimsuit season but then an old college buddy visited. You didn't have time for work-outs and didn't want to cramp your buddy's vacation so as the gracious host you joined them in tasting all the delicious junk you hadn't touched in months.  I am not judging any of these scenarios because we all tend to fall short on our goals now and then.  At least I know I have,  when you work hard you place strain on yourself (anyone seen a bodybuilder at the gym - you can' build muscle without placing your strain on your body).  Strain weakens your effort because you have pushed yourself until you hit fatigue and temptation loves to piggyback fatigue.  Don't we all like the easy win? Of course temptation is going to knock when you feel lost, tired, miserable, down and out.  That's why boundaries are necessary. They are in your power at all times.  But if you don't maintain them, establish them, or continue to build them you lose control easily.  So easily that you can't help but feel robbed and that someone or something else is to blame.

Life needs flexibility.  Boundaries don't have to be rigid (and are easier to break if not movable).  But boundaries should be established.  We all need goals, we all need space to grow, and we need to know we have a say in our own life.

May your HealthFULL Journey teach you to be your own boss that allows you to be the version of yourself; willing and able to serve those you love and respect. 'Til we meet again. . .

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

You're such a peach

Are you a fan of the peach?  Have you ever been complimented as being a peach?  Peaches are such an interesting and distinctive fruit.  We communicate using different expressions about them, (bruises like a peach, peach-fuzz, or "Will you be a peach and do me a favor?")  And I must warn you I am now a days settled in Peach Country.  If I drive about a half hour I can see the infamous peach watertower (though honestly it looks a lot more like someone's fanny).  My brother and sister-in-law have peach trees so I can honestly say I have had a super fresh peach cobbler.  (Delicious!!! by the way).  Most people either love peaches or will not go within fifty feet of them.  What is super intriguing to me; is that it rarely is the flavor of peaches that turns people off, its that pesky fuzzy layer.  Because a peach has that flavor not easily mimicked, its sweet (drippingly so, which is why people rarely peel a peach to eat them), but then most peaches also have a deep sourness to them.  The sourness feels like the peach is taking a bite back at you.  Well this introduction is to discuss the fruit of the week.  I bet you believe I am going to tell you what variety of peaches we sampled, but you would be wrong.  We tried a fruit that tastes like a peach but without that pesky fuzz.  Did you guess nectarine?  Close, Mango Nectarines.

I saw this in the grocery store and knew I had to sample one.  Mangoes are delicious and so are nectarines.  I am going out a limb but believe that the mango part of the fruit is to describe the color.  Otherwise this fruit was all nectarine (which really means it is all peach - because a nectarine is just a peach in a plum's coat).  The taste = peach, the smell = peach, the pit = peach, the peel = plum, and the color = sort of mango.  It was pretty easy without any knowledge of the fruit to anticipate the ripeness of the fruit by just visual.  It starts off as almost a lime green fades into a yellow like a golden apple or almost a super ripe pear.  But here's the thing if you go to touch the fruit which has been squeezed, poked, pinched, prodded by thousands of other people you can understand the expression "you bruise like a peach".  Because as I tried to pick the best of the best of this fruit I too grabbed and poked at these delicate fruits and then was appalled by how many were literally manhandled.  I found several that met my rigorous produce test and was worth my moolah.  I will be the first to admit when it comes to produce I am that annoying person who will pick up each fruit and inspect it twice, wipe of false blemishes.  Just super OCD about picking out the "right" produce (and half the time I don't really know what qualifies the perfect item, I just go with my gut after squeezing, rattling, sniffing, and eagle-eying the specimen).

We went super easy on the preparation for this fruit.  We washed them and then ate them like a snack out of hand.  No slicing, no sauteing, no grilling, and no mixing with other ingredients.  Simply ate it out of hand and it was good, if you like peaches.  My initial couple of bites were very sweet with a lot of juice but then I had two almost bitter bites as I got close to the pit.  But if you are looking to try something new or stump your friends this is definitely a good item to pick up.  Its summer, what's better than enjoying a simple bite of a juicy fruit.

May your HealthFULL Journey remind you that sometimes enjoying a different perspective reminds us of old loves and simple pleasures.  "Til we meet again. . . 

Sunday, July 24, 2011

Where is my oomph?

Exercise is getting harder and harder to complete.  Where is my oomph?  Tired?  Hot?  Overwhelmed?  These are all common excuses.  But that's when it is important to muddle through.  We are teething in our southern home.  I think that sentence sums up where my patience, energy, and sanity have all gone.  And when I say "we" this is definitely a family activity.  My sweet little boy that slept and smiled has been taken over by a baby that cries, whines, can't sleep for longer than twenty minutes but then is a drooling giggler.  I feel like I am living with Dr. Jekyll and Mr Hyde when he was eight months old.  I know these are the times I need to gather my energy to get my endorphins pumping and work out the tension from my muscles.  But ahhh! I am losing my mind!  If you have read another of my blogs "mutiny in the household" mentioned how the world is against my sleep.  And I feel the pattern is back.  I was ready to doze at 1:30 last night and I was about to drag myself to bed I heard the stirrings of the li'l one.  I hesitated and said the silent prayers I believe many parents have uttered.  Please Please fall back asleep.  And a couple of minutes pass and the growls of sleepiness begin to subside until the five alarm scream announces.  Baby needs attention before the house is ready to slumber.  I attempt to address his needs one by one and finally at three o clock we both hit our weariness level and drift to sleep.  He hasn't had anything to eat in the middle of the night in awhile so I figured we might actually have a sleep in kind of morning.  I blissfully shut my eyes for the sweet dreams that come with that thought.  Until my alarm goes off at 6:15 am.  What?!?!?! My hubby sets my alarm when he works so that I can try to get my morning started before our son.  But for two hours later.  Oops.  I crawl/leap back into bed for two more hours of shut eye.  Except a half hour passes and the screams of someone alert the house.  You have got to be kidding!  So once again I believe mutiny was declared and no one informed me.  So you may understand why I really believe the household is teething.  (I hate that he has to cut teeth and wish I could take the pain.  Not only does he hurt but he doesn't really understand what is happening.)

  Where is my oomph?  On my pillow I imagine.  I have played with the idea of a nap.  But sometimes when I nap I turn into a grizzly bear and also experience what movies make a hangover look like.  My thoughts are fuzzy, I can't decipher what time it is, my reactions seem hesitant, and I am just moody because I feel like I lost my day.  Grrrr!  So really it is better to muddle through the day but than I can barely function.  Decisions, decisions.

But I promised myself that I needed to get back on the movement track and made a deal with my hubby.  If you take baby duty for the next thirty minutes I am going to go exercise.  So I drag out the Wii Fit.  And promise myself twenty minutes is acceptable but I am going to get moving.  I am feeling a bit scattered and started skipping through the whole list of exercises (I lost 1.8 lbs in the last two days but gained 9 years.  Kind of sums up my skills).  I did something I don't think I have ever done in a Wii Fit routine.  I used all five categories : Training Plus, Yoga, Strengthening, Aerobics, and Balance games.  Five Alive.  I rarely do the strengthening movements as I use Yoga as my warm up usually.  I really liked the Strengthening exercises and one even stated I was a Bodybuilder. Which I proudly yelled down to my boys.  I know it is a silly pick me up but it did the trick I flew through the full thirty minute work out.  It is amazing how a little encouragement, a little effort, and a little drive actually can help one find their oomph.  It is hard to find anything when sitting down in one place but with a little movement your opportunity increases immensely.

May your HealthFULL Journey bring oomph to all aspects of your life. 'Til we meet again. . .

Friday, July 22, 2011

Seeing Red

'Tis the season to grill.  My hubby and I had a steak dinner planned as a special welcome weekend supper (and chuck eye was on sale recently).  Yesterday I realized it was Thursday and we had not chosen our new produce for the week.  So I drove to Whole Foods (like I ever need a reason to go here).  Again I have to say summer is my favorite time for produce.  There easily was ten different items for my hubby and I to sample without even searching for the perfect hidden gem. Melons galore, but as the Golden Honeydew melon was last week I decided to branch out.  Then I saw an item I have semi-tried but never in its whole food state, RED CORN (I have tried the patriotic corn chips of blue, red, and white strips. So technically I have tried this product but not officially prepared by my hands)!  Many of us have seen this decoration in numerous homes around the autumn season as it is gorgeous when dried.  But ladies and gentleman this produce is not just for decoration anymore.  It is tasty, healthy, and eye-catching.  First lets start with the eye catching red.  To prove to us shoppers Whole Foods had peeled the husk slightly so we could see the beautifully hued kernels.  I would describe the color as more of  rosy pink then brilliant red.  But I believe, there is a chance the color had started to soak back into the cob. Healthy because we review the common rule of thumb that with most produce; the deeper the color the healthier the product.  Again true in this case as the red reflects the antioxidant qualities that one may find in pomegranates. 

Now unto how do we prepare this beautiful produce that is in its peak season of (June - October)?  How do you like your corn prepared.  I bet this would be delicious in a salsa or a very pretty soup.  We prepared it on the grill.  YUM!  Have you ever had grilled corn on the cob?  So easy.  You can husk it completely and throw the ear on to get a bit of char on the kernels, but watch it.  Because burnt corn is as tasty as burnt popcorn.  Blech!  I have heard of others preparing the corn and wrapping it back into its husk.  We used tin foil after we spread a dab of butter and a few spices like garlic powder, pepper, salt, cayenne, and a tish of paprika.  So good!  Now we probably should have left one of the ears plain so we could have tried the red corn flavor straight forward.  Very similar to typical corn (yellow, white, and bi-color).  The color after this prep turned into a faded brick red, slightly brownish.  Other preps I believe would draw out the brilliant reds more,(for instance salsa I think would be quite eye-catching). The taste for me was altered due to the spices, but I found that they pretty much on par with yellow corn. Although I did read two different blogs and one stated that red was sweeter and the other blog said it was earthier.  I am suspicious that the flavor may have to do with when the corn was harvested.  The texture however was noticeably different in my opinion.  I found the red kernels were a bit crispier with more of a satisfying pop than the yellow kernels when chewing the corn off the cob.  Great addition to your summer meal.  Also how fun for kids (the younger and the older versions) to try in a simple bowl of corn kernels mixed with other colored varieties.

May your HealthFULL Journey have you satisfying all your senses (vision - red, hearing - pop!, smell - grilled produce, touch - bumpy texture, and taste - yum!) while building a healthier you. 'Til we meet again. . .  

Thursday, July 21, 2011

The Art of the Salad

Ahhh! Salad can be the tastiest meal and fairly easy to make.  Now if you are thinking of plain old lettuce as salad, no that's lettuce.  A salad is a wonderful conglomerate of whatever you want to combine.  If I was to title the salads my husband and I make it would have to be along the lines "The Kitchen Sink - Fridge - Pantry Salad".  Start grabbing supplies and mix it all together.  And what is great about individual salads.  Do you like raspberries?  No, leave them off and I'll add extra because I do like them.  I would say to fix a truly satisfying meal salad our household follows an adaptable formula.  Greens + veggie + fruit + filler/protein + crunchy and then topped with dressing.  Sounds like a lot doesn't it?  Its your whole meal make it tasty and filling.  It does no good to eat a plate of lettuce without dressing and call it supper but before going to bed you are starving and down a triple scoop ice cream sundae with extra hot fudge.  You would have saved a lot of calories and a ton of empty calories if you had a more filling supper. 

Let's start with the greens, I am going to be completely honest.  We usually start with a bagged salad.  They are so easy to pour, split in half and build a great foundation.  Some packages come with a mix of greens, some assorted veggies, or beautiful rinsed baby spinach.  Now some of these packages you should re-rinse your greens and I know a lot of people say you should always wash your lettuce/greens yourself.  Again I confess sometimes/most times, the salad mix comes straight out of the bag and on to the plate.  Great start.  If iceberg is the only lettuce you will eat because it has little flavor , so be it.  But I so strongly encourage a deeper green especially as you are going to top it with so many goodies.  Baby spinach is a great foundation and packed with tons of vitamins (folate powerhouse for those who are upping your folic acid intake and iron).  Be like pop-eye :)  Also there are tons of other great choices and if the change is too scary.  Half of a darker green with the comfort and safety of your iceberg.  You might realize how your light lettuce carries no extra flavor and is boring like ice.  (No wonder you don't like salads.)  But moving on.  The theory of nutrition, the darker the color the more vitamins and minerals it holds.  (Iceberg borderline white, light green compared to the deep green of spinach.) 

Next up what kind of veggies.  So many choices. Big favorites in our house: our colored bell peppers (we included an orange one tonight).  I just slice them or dice them, slices give you a little more crunch, the diced makes the salad look festive with confetti.  Sliced mushrooms give you that meaty texture you might crave. Tomatoes tend to be a favorite.  I prefer cherry or grape for convenience and flavor.  Grape tomatoes I just wash them and throw them on the plate.  And cherry I tend to wash and slice into halves. Carrots shredded and cucumber slices (I know cucumber is a fruit but then so is a tomato, they just fit better into this section) and a mellow flavor with great texture.  If you like sweeter tastes add beet slices; they do stain whatever they touch so make sure you cut them into bite size pieces before adding them to the salad masterpiece.

Let's discuss fruit.  Ohhhhhhh have I mentioned how much I love summer produce?  Melons, berries galore, thank you!!! I love every kind of berry.  And all berries mix well into a salad.  We added strawberries to ours tonight and some cherries.  Usually we have blueberries on hand and I finished our raspberries last night for my bedtime snack or they would have been on my plate tonight.  Pomegranate seeds can be fun on a salad crunchy while still a tad juicy, tart, and sweet.  This was how I tried kumquats on a spinach salad.  Orange sections can be quite good in a simple salad.  I am very picky with my citrus mixes as I tend to not like that sour bite that's almost bitter.  So very few flavors do I mix with oranges.  Grapes especially seedless and half add a good juicy bite to your salad.  And apples can add a bit of sweet crunch.  But hands down we tend to use berries the most.   

Filler/Protein - Choices, lots and lots of choices.  My hubby and I really like hard-boiled egg in our salad. We also like chickpeas/ garbanzo beans (we used canned after we rinse them thoroughly and then just plop a handful on your salad - so good!) which is filling and gives a unique bite; not quite a crunchy texture but that makes you bite down.  We also have tried grilled chicken and grilled shrimp.  Grilling the meat gives it that perfect flavor for a salad.  It's simple but retains its moistness.  We had grilled chicken tonight.  And then numerous cheese choices depending on what other ingredients you have.  I went shopping at my favorite store today and picked through the Bit O' Cheese basket.  My own little special pick-me-up.  And the winner was Manchego gently grated over the chicken.  *humming* Yes quite tasty. 

Crunchy - Absolutely the key component in our household.  What little ingredient will make our salad sing?  We use a variety of nuts for this component.  Obviously if you have a nut allergy steer clear but if not, options upon options.  Also wasabi peas are a good bet.  They add sweetness with a kick.  Just don't ever add them early on and then let your salad sit and then take a bite.  They become mushy and no longer that crunch one craves in a salad.  Always a crowd pleaser = croutons.  Some other items that may be hanging out in your cabinets that would work, seeds (sunflower, pumpkin, flax), pretzels (if you really like that saltiness),and  sesame sticks. 

Then top with your favorite dressing.  We usually stick with ranch, creamy with a bit of spice.  I also tend to mix it up with a variety of different vinaigrette (balsamic vinegar and olive oil the most popular as we tend to have big bottles of both on hand at all times.)  Now again the beauty of a salad is it can totally echo your favorites.  Perhaps I gave you a helpful suggestion but by all means you are the one biting down.  Make it what you like.  Let your ingredients play off each other, let the colors splatter the plate, for this is your chance to create art.  Forget mom's scolding and play with your fruits and veggies. Because after a couple of choices you have a tasty and somewhat healthy (depending on those choices) satisfying meal full of beautiful colors.  Bravo on your masterpiece.

May your HealthFULL Journey guide you to your preferences and inspire you to choose in a way that both delights you and creates a healthier you.  'Til we meet again. . .

The Problem with Roots

The problem with roots is that you never know where they will end.  For my exercise today (which has not been daily as I am getting sporadic in this mission).  I told myself you are going to exercise young lady, you don't have to like it, love it, but you do have to attempt it.  If you quit after five minutes but so be it you are getting yourself moving.  So I approached my hubby with a fabulous idea.  It's been hundred degrees, humid, rainy, hot, icky weather and I mentioned to him it was cool outside early this evening.  His reply "Compared to what?"  Sweetly I smiled that wifely smile, "than today *insert giggle*". "Hmmm" I mused out load.  "We should work on the yard.  Our li'l one is down for a solid nap and looky here we both are available to work in the yard".  He harumphed but agreed to my suggestion.  As we got ready he looked at my bare feet and asked "Aren't you going to wear shoes?"  "Of course", I responded.  He then looked at my feet, again! And then looked at my face with that manly furrowed eyebrow questioning look and asked "Which shoes?"  And then I countered with a question, "Which shoes should I wear?"  He smiled and mentioned " I wouldn't wear flip flops."  "Oh? Really? But we're just going to be in the yard."  So for my work out I actually put on socks and tennis shoes.  Crazy idea!  We then get to the front door as I have now met the dress code.  I notice his hands are empty.  "Ummmm?  Aren't we going to need garbage bags? (Yup as a reply.) Okay, and aren't we going to need tools. (Sure he says).  Do we have tools? I inquired.  (Nope).  Sure we do, we must. (No we really don't).  Do we have work gloves?  (Shakes head).  Then why did you agree to work in the yard.  (He shrugged and replied I figured you could show me what you wanted and expected. We could pull the easy weeds). 

Can you tell from this exchange, neither of us are really green thumbs?  And we have become the house on the block that can grow weed trees like nobody's business.  What motivated this yard work is that I was throwing away some of our garbage and noticed the biggest mushroom I have ever seen.  It literally was the size of my cat's head (and he has a pretty big head!).  We bagged that mushroom and its nearby friend as our first official yard duty job.  Then we took a look at the back yard.  Oh sweet yard how I apologize for my ignorance and neglect.  You are so in need of TLC yard.  And I don't really know how to do that.  But I tried for a solid forty-five minutes, with a tired hubby (who has worked 21+ hours in the last two days), a medium size shovel, and a melted rake.  Good times!  We semi-cleared a path by picking up a huge branch and knocking down some four foot hollow stalks. We then came across a beginner tree.  Oh but looks are deceiving.  This pole had some strength and thriving trunk.  No bigger than an inch and half circumference of a trunk.  Oh but this bad boy had some roots. 

My hubby attacked with the shovel and began digging.  I then wrestled the beast to the ground.  Snapping the twig close to the ground.  Oh this has become war sapling as you try to trip me and then would not snap.  I pulled, I stomped, I kicked (remember we have limited tools), I twisted and you showed wear but did not break.  I then begged my hubby for the shovel and I dig, and hack and spear this shovel into your stupid trunk.  You weren't breaking.  We then attempted to uncover the roots.  Again we hack, we pull, we lift, and used whatever leverage we could imagine.  This became my soul mission outside.  I felt if we just uncovered the roots and could pull this tree free there was a life lesson worth knowing.  My husband was such an amazing sport but "Seriously, we need a game plan.  We are not going to stay out here all night with no tools with this tree and waste hours and accomplish nothing."  Oh on the contrary my love this tree is going down! There is a reason and we are going to tough this out together.  Like in the movies we were going to pull this tree out of the ground proving nothing is impossible, together we can do anything, and that we feel this pride and accomplishment.  Cue the hero music now!  But wait, "Snap" Ahhhhh it's the tree. No, its the shovel not meant to unearth trees with 3 feet of roots showing.  We have no idea what else is underground.  But three feet of thick, gnarly roots are unearthed for this four foot bean pole of a sapling.  My husband declares the game over, the tree wins, and now not only do we have to buy all the outside tools we need to add a shovel to the list.  My bad!  Oh I am so bitter at that tree.  It stands out there mocking me (bruised and laying on the ground as I did injure its branchy trunk).  But it still lives.  I stick my tongue out at you stupid tree with the big roots!

How often appearances are deceiving!  I saw that tree and figured between myself, my hubby, and our shovel; we could clear a second path into the back yard of forgotten plant life.  But no, this tree had to have crazy strong roots that are three four times the size of the sapling's trunk.  I have attempted getting to know me again as I travel this HealthFULL Journey, so that I can Fully Understand Life by Living.  I am trying to recall memories and events to figure out what paths I should have swerved differently.  I am milling through emotions, proud accomplishment, and past hurts trying to reveal how I got here.  Sometimes I will declare  uncovering certain memories a victory like a forgotten gem.  But I forget that under some of the dust isn't a polished stone but only a ball of mud.  Time does erase certain events and paint in rosy hues.  Recalling certain emotions is like pulling that tree.  The roots are so deeply embedded that they can't be uncovered all at once.  Its too much.  It needs time to stretch and breathe and release what is has been holding all these years.  So when you start digging and hit those roots.  Take a moment to soak in the moment, to let the root breathe so that it doesn't suffocate you with its tangled tendrils. 

May your HealthFULL Journey expose the old rotten roots so that you can plant new ones that are even stronger.  "Til we meet again. . .

Monday, July 18, 2011

The Pits

I pack my lunch when I go to work.  There is a pretty standard menu that I follow that takes the stress and thought process out of preparing lunch.  I tend to eat a lot of left overs or re-mix them into a different dish.  But this also helps clean out our fridge and save the budget.  If I don't bring in the left overs they tend to find their own spot in the fridge until they grow their own fur coats.  I know that's disgusting, but has happened (frequently).  Biggest culprit we throw out is produce.  When I buy it I have all these menu plans and ideas and excitement to cook.  We'll say shopping day is Saturday and the next time I think about the fruit is Monday nine days later.  Most of the good stuff is no longer good.  So I have to monitor what I buy and constantly remind myself.  Remember how you bought the berries for snacks.  Eat them!!!  I think my four pound strawberry buy from Costco is brilliant until I eat three of them.  It helps to pack fruit for snacking at the office.  It doesn't take that much time to prepare but I tell myself it does.  For instance blueberries, raspberries, and blackberries are delicious.  And they just need a rinse and go.  Summer is absolutely my favorite season for fruit ( I am so a berry girl!)  So constantly we have to monitor our produce drawers.  Currently we are seeing a lot of red in our fridge, raspberries, strawberries, and cherries.  Ohhh I love a good cherry.  They are so pretty, that deep ruby shade that slowly swirls among the berries fading lighter or darker.
Today I was preparing for tomorrow's lunch golden honeydew melon mixed with some cherries.  If I am at home I love to pluck the cherries and spit out the pits.  Which is a solitary activity or for those who truly know and love you.  It doesn't sound like a pleasing work atmosphere activity.  Which means I need to pit my cherries.  I pluck my stems, pluck, pluck, pluck.  And as I grow more accustomed to working with fruit.  I give myself a thumbs up for wearing a red shirt as the cherries are staining my fingers that beautiful ruby shade. And nearby I have a handy bowl to collect my stems and my pits.  Now I have the fruit container on the stove and the cherry garbage over by the sink as I have just rinsed the cherries.  It takes me three individual cherries pitted.  Cut the cherry in half, twist, and push/thumb out pit.  I then turn around and walk the three steps to the fruit container I am bringing to work.  I drop off the cherry halves and walk the three steps back to the sink.  I repeat this cycle two more times.  Then it dawns me.  Bring the container to the sink.  If I was doing this for exercise so be it.  I wasn't, at least not intentionally.  But this visual struck me.  How often do I repeat the pattern?  It's working, its getting the job done; but it isn't enhancing my life nor had I explored different ways to tackle the problem.  I was so focused on removing the pits that the means got lost.   Too often I do this.  Focus on the problem and forget that there could be more than one solution.  Some ways are better than others, and which path depends on the goal.  It is important to remove the pit/obstacle but keep thinking of solutions.  You never know which path will lead you to be your best.

May your HealthFULL Journey never focus on the pits but the numerous solutions.  "Til we meet again. . . 

Sunday, July 17, 2011

Getting Sloppy

This HealthFULL Journey is about changes.  Trying a variety of patterns and seeing what works, what sticks, and what can be forgotten.  Tofu has became a staple in our house.  I usually have a package or two in the freezer of Extra Firm.  Now I know for many of you TOFU is a four letter word.  Which is true but it doesn't have to sound like a curse upon your house.  Do you eat hamburger out of the pack uncooked, unseasoned?  Or chicken?  No, so treat Tofu as the base.  Yes you can eat Tofu straight out of the pack, but I wouldn't recommend it.  Let's start with what is Tofu.  It is a great source of protein without using any animal product.  Because Tofu is pressed soybean curd. You have several different textures which play into the savory or sweet side of meals.  Usually the silken tofu is used for dessert and the firm/extra firm sponge blocks are used for savory dishes.  It is relatively cheap and fills you up if prepared with a little extra TLC.  My hubby is a man who likes meat but has willingly tried and appreciated most of the dishes we have tried.  I have mentioned our tofu challenge in the past and might have even mentioned one of our favorites.  Which is what we ate for dinner tonight, Sloppy Tofu (think sloppy joes).  Delicious.  It is filling, it has lots of flavor, and a great introduction for those who haven't "really" tried tofu.  If you freeze the extra firm all you have to do is take the block out at the beginning of the day (great if you work) and drop it in your sink.  Again not animal byproduct so there isn't the contamination fear.  After eight hours it is thawed and you can begin to rinse and squeeze.  It holds quite a bit of liquid, it really does resemble a sponge.  So remove it from the package and run some tepid/cool water and begin to rinse the liquid it has been soaking up in the package.  From what I understand if you leave it in the fridge versus the freezer it gives a different texture.  I really like the freezer approach.  As we always have a block or two on hand and aren't tripping over it.  Then choose any method how to prepare the tofu.  Our household three favorites are spinach rolls (if you love Italian and stuffed shells - this is the way to go!), sloppy tofu (yum) and the all-time favorite tofu tacos (so easy, prepare exactly like you would your beef, pork, chicken, fish tacos but substitute tofu).  Once you are done squeezing out the moisture.  Place a paper towel around the tofu block and then place it between two plates and a heavy object to push down the tofu for about forty five minutes to an hour.  (great time to veg in front of the tv, homework time, take a walk).  And then you are ready to cook.  This is when you can cut slabs, or crumble, or marinade a little.  Your call.  But for the tacos and the sloppy tofu you crumble. *Great kid activity*.  They can crush until their hearts content with their hands.  Because the sponge like texture will pick up all necessary flavor when cooking.  I borrowed our sloppy tofu recipe from the site http://www.savvyvegetarian.com/vegetarian-recipes/tofu-sloppy-joes.php . So good and fairly easy. 

So that is my soapbox speech how good tofu can be and is so simple to add to the menu rotation.  Cheap, easy to prepare, and lots of nutritional benefits.  Also tofu recipes tend to mean I'm cooking.  Now hubby is a great sport but this is a win win for us.  He'll try it if I cook it!  Which is fair.  So today my exercise and food victory was me slaving in the kitchen, I did rounds and rounds of dishes and I prepared lunch, dinner, and extras (snacks, lunches) for the week ahead.  I don't know about you but delivery, fast food, and restaurants get more of our business than necessary.  It just sounds so tempting to let someone prep, cook, serve, AND DO THE DISHES for our family.  We tell ourselves it is okay the extra cost because it saves us time, energy/sanity, and tastes good.  But is it really worth the cost.  It takes us at least twenty minutes to decide on dinner, then usually 15 - 20 minutes to drive to dinner and another fifteen - 20 back.  Then it takes 10 minutes for fast food or roughly an hour for dinner at a restaurant. So we are looking at least an hour to two hours.  And delivery is usually an hour (between decision, order, and delivery). Our last five deliveries of dinner have either been disappointing in flavor, ridiculous time, or forgotten an item.  Our last several restaurant experiences have been costly, bad service, or just okay food.  Notice the trend?  Either my cooking is getting better or quality is going down (at least at the establishments we have visited).  Plus you don't know what it is in that food.  At home with a little planning you pay easily less than 25% of what you pay at a food establishment.  And most meals take under thirty minutes of active participation (when one can grab some uninterrupted time).  We say it is great to eat around the supper table as a family but maybe it is just as important to put the family to work in the kitchen.  With a little ingenuity everyone can have kitchen duty at the same time.  Or spend a big day of prep for easy put togethers during the week.  That's what I did.  Made some egg salad for quick sandwiches, caramel corn for lunch treats or a dessert snack, prep /dice veggies  for easy flavor fillers (pepper, onions, jalapeno) and steam some rice.  Yes we still have a menu to cook the night of, but at least with a menu and some prep work done we are much more likely to raid our pantry then pick up the car keys.

May your HealthFULL Journey include some focus, preparation (as opportunity is 90 % preparation), and ingenuity. Not only will you be ready for surprises but hope for them.  'Til we meet again. . . 

Golden Opportunity

Have you ever tried honeydew melon?  Really tried it.  I know many of us may associate the honeydew melon with that dreadful frozen fruit cup that many restaurants offer as their standard fruit cup: one or two red grapes, cantaloupe, and honeydew.  All three fruits lose their delicious sweetness as the ice overwhelms their subtle flavors.  Now honeydew is actually an attractive and usually a mellow companion to most fruits.  Most of us know that pale green color but there are two other colors Honeydew can wear.  There is the orange flesh which I believe would resemble cantaloupe and might be hard to decipher the two.  And then there is the Golden Honeydew which is the fruit of the week for my own honey and myself :)  We made it into dessert after we had a delicious dinner.  My hubby is not a fan of the honeydew melon.  So I did warn him before he tried it to see if he was game and agreed.

I cut up the melon and either I hit the perfect ripeness or the golden honeydew is way juicier than its relatives. The seeds scooped out very easily and I poured the pool of juice into the bowl where I was preparing the fruit salad.  Very simple prep but delicious results.  I added just under half of the melon into the bowl and the other half cubed for snacking as it is sweet and light on its own.  For the dessert I added a dozen strawberries quartered and a dozen cherries ( I love summer fruits!!!) halved.  I then added a small amount of coconut rum and a sprinkle of sugar to pull out all three fruits' sweetness.  I also toasted a 1/4 cup of hazelnuts and then drizzled honey just enough to get the nuts sticky into little mini-clumps with a dash of cayenne for that little kick of heat at the end. And just to boost that toasted nut flavor I added a drips of sesame oil.  YUM!  I left the nuts to cool on the cupboard and let the fruit soak in the fridge for thirty minutes.  Combined and ate.  Great summer dessert with lots of flavor and aroma.  I thought a dollop of whip cream would be nice but we didn't have any in the house.  After tasting the finished product I didn't see the need for the cream at all.  My hubby said that the fruit didn't even need the rum.  But I actually liked the coconut aroma, I bet coconut milk/juice might add the same appeal.

Not bad.  It was a fun little find that screams summer.  And melons need very little prep which I love.  Also again this might have been the ripeness or the actual fruit but the rind isn't that thick.  It was extremely easy to half the melon which on some produce is a nightmare.  One simple chop and the knife slid through the fruit.  Love that, then easy scoop, quick cut to remove the rind, and cube chop.  Maybe a ten minute prep (and I am the slowest in the kitchen) to prepare a yummy snack with tons of servings (roughly ten is what nutritional data suggests).

It was fun to chop, toast, and macerate in the kitchen.  I felt very chef-like as I grabbed ingredients through suggestions I found on the web and chose myself.  My hubby and I chatted while I "cooked" as the only item truly cooked was toasted hazelnuts and he stayed out of the kitchen which is complete role reversal.  But that is why I like this new produce for the week challenge.  It is not only allowing me a new taste of the product but encourages me to learn and have more confidence in the kitchen.  Fear holds us back a lot.  What if I don't like the flavor? What if I mess up the recipe? What if I. . . and the list continues.  Fear is usually about the unknown.  But the more we equip ourselves with knowledge, experience, and permission to error; we gain back in tenfold.

May your HealthFULL Journey discourage fear and encourage opportunities.  We only fail when we don't try.  'Til we meet again. . . 

Thursday, July 14, 2011

Alone or Together?

Aren't travels fun?  Sometimes exhausting? Whether it is a week long vacation, family meet-ups, or daily outings there is the end result or destination but also this lag time between Point A and Point B.  Sometimes we need these to be solitary events so during the lag time we can scream, pout, drift, giggle, ponder, whine, build up, let go, and renew.  Sometimes we need that friend or family member or even stranger to give that extra pat, a listening ear, advice, empathy/sympathy, hug, look, that restores our soul.  Sometimes we don't know until we're in the moment or after, I really needed that social touch or that quiet time to move forward.  Stand still you become stagnant.  Go backwards and lose so much ground that took everything to gain.  So forward is usually the intention.  I valued my independence for a long time.  I not only liked being unique, I craved to stand out from the crowd.  But as I got older and because of different events and numerous reasons I began to enjoy discarding my independence and enjoyed the protection of others.  Once again I have swung to the extremes. Completely independent sometimes leaves you stranded on the edge of a mountain and you can't move forward so you're stuck on the edge.  If you give up your independence completely as you crawl into the safety net of others you become trapped and your unique desires shrivel under suffocation which again leaves you stuck.  There are times we need to reach out for others to help move the boulders that block our path.  But there are also times we need to kindly brush off the assistance of others and step forward on our own.  So that we remember what we like and more importantly who we are.  It is when we are without distraction that we ever know ourselves.  It is good to have support, but it is also good to know thyself.

May your HealthFULL journey be FULL of a strong support team of those you love, adore, and trust.  And may one of those support people be thyself.  So that you know you are strong in any situation. 'Til we meet again. . .

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Simply taking a Stand

If consistency is key I keep misplacing it.  I didn't get a lot of sleep last night but decided this morning I had to do something for thirty minutes.  And I could have waited until later tonight but that line of reasoning tends to dawdle throughout the day as the hours dwindle down.  I certainly wasn't up for some Brazilian beats, nor the concentration of Tai Chi so I pulled out my trusty Wii Fit.  For the most part I played the balancing games after a couple of yoga poses.  I realize I wasn't burning a gazillion calories but it was something.  For the most part I was standing with a little leaning.  But I was using my mind to focus on movement vs. food.  We've all heard that expression "If you stand for nothing you will fall for anything."  Oh and temptation knows how to make you fall.  Whether it is food (hello dessert *bats eyelashes*), smoking, gambling, the eye of another.  We say it hits us when we're weak.  Here's the truth it is always clamoring for our attention.  It is when we are tired and weary we invite them back into our lives.  We seek their comfort and want to believe the promises of how things have changed and we can make this relationship work.  But you can't.  Addiction can never be your faithful partner because the relationship is all too consuming and jealous.  Addiction forces you to push away family, friends, activities, and adventure.  It grips you and whispers your dirty secrets.  It knows blackmail better than any political ninja and the biggest secret it knows is that you secretly want to chuck your progress and crawl back into a black hole with your addiction and block out all responsibilities.  It was maybe two seasons ago on "So You Think You Can Dance" that they based a contemporary piece on Addiction.  It was beautiful and haunting.  What a visual of something so many people experience.  Each journey is unique but we shouldn't feel alone as we all have hang-ups.  So when your addiction is pulling you into their arms with sweet whispers of lies, stand up.  Perhaps it is the tv that hypnotizes you into a vegetable and you couldn't possibly pick up a dish.  Get out of the comfy chair and you would be amazed how one action can lead to healthier choices.  If you love to gobble food on your couch all curled up with your DVR.  Food no longer allowed in that one spot of the house.  You aren't really handcuffing yourself but you are taking a stand and changing the rules.  One action will change the relationship of addiction.  If you can't drive by your favorite bakery without getting a doughnut.  New route to work.  Oh what a pain.  But when you figure the trigger that weakens your resolve you can choose to stand up to your bully and show both your addiction and yourself that you are strong enough to take a stand.  So I took a stand against laziness and the snacking monster and stepped onto my Wii Fit.  I burned less than 200 calories but saved myself from consuming an extra 700.  That's a Win - Win in so many ways.  Oh there will be days the whispers will be a little louder and me a little more willing but each stand pushes the bully a little bit farther away.  I'll take an inch to avoid the pinch.

May your journey teach you strength and to not fall for false promises or sweet lies.  'Til we meet again. . .

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Heart be Still

Heart be Still

There are moments that take your breath away.
A lot of moments in every day.
Some come with sweat,
Some with debt,
And some are the reward after a lot of fret.

Through the years
We shed so many tears
That wet our face
And with our sweat kept pace.

We get one life to live.
We can keep ourselves hidden or freely give.
Many of us choose the forbidden fruit
That does a number on those we love, our lives, and our birthday suit.
Our bodies are our only true witness.
To the world they whisper our choices, our neglect,  even our fitness.
With these secrets others determine our worth with a glance.
Are we worthy of friendship or courtship? Could we be worth the chance?

It is our image that we share.
Do we shun the world or invite others to care?
We beat ourselves up, we tear ourselves down, of ourselves we constantly judge:
And then after all that, we tell ourselves it's okay to eat fudge.

Few people care about the numbers on the scale;
Except for those that feel they fail.
So, if on that little box you feel like a whale
And that your body feels not like a temple, but more like a jail;
Then begin to move even if you're no faster than a snail.

Choose foods that naturally represent the rainbow
And that aren't fried and covered in dough.
One can change anytime until. . .
The heart be still.
 






Monday, July 11, 2011

Adaptability

When I was a kid I loved Encyclopedia Brown books.  The mystery that you solved by choosing your own path. I sometimes pride myself on being a problem solver or perhaps a better term would be a solution seeker.  What's the difference, a lot.  Let's say you lost twenty bucks I might not be able to help you find that specific 20 bucks (it's lost!).  However,  together we can realize do you want twenty dollars for something specific?  Or you liked the security of the twenty dollars?  Once we establish what was truly lost (a new book or security) we can develop a solution to help remedy the lost twenty fiasco. 

But in this journey I keep trying to force rules, I am trying to create a plan/a schedule for me because it is what books, experts, friends, tv, etc. says will help.  I am not that rigid of a person.  When studying in school I am a crammer and for those who want to lecture you can't write a good paper in two hours.  I hear you, I believe you, but certain systems worked for me and when I would try someone else's approach I got horrible results.  Structure is fantastic.  Many of us appreciate that our homes have strong foundations.  But who wants to live in a cement box?  We need structure but function better with softness and give. 

What does this mean?  I am not Brazilian nor do I have a Brazilian body that moves to a Brazilian rhythm.  I tried to dance to my DVD.  And on one hand it was a disaster on another I had a good laugh.  Oh I got frustrated because I do not enjoy not being able to do something (especially on the first try - silly I know but just being honest).  I would see what the instructor was doing and would try to copy but not so lucky.  My legs would instinctively do a different action than what was instructed.  She would kick forward my legs would tuck back, they would say move to the left I would halfway be to the right.  Then I would try to correct my movement only to miss both opportunities.  I muddled through 17 1/2 minutes and just realized I didn't have the heart to move unto the second dance.  No I don't have to dance perfectly the sequence.  Which I am trying to teach myself, any movement is improvement over no movement.  When they can-can and plie and shimmy - If I just rotate from my waist I am doing something.  So that is a lesson I am working on but decided I would rather finish my thirty minutes on the comfort of My Wii Fit.  Where the Wii Fit and I both agreed I'm thirty.  I don't know if I should be happy that we agreed or disappointed that it didn't feel I was younger.  (I did just come from my Brazilian dance lesson - my weariness might have shown :)  I muddled through a step routine where the machine informed me that I step unevenly.  Great I have no rhythm and I am uncoordinated - got that from the DVD in my own thoughts but now a machine agrees. Excellent, thanks for the confirmation!  But I did the best I had done on the obstacle course and then got out my frustration with some snow balls (true this workout has me sway on the board and point the controller to the screen and I push a button but I appreciate the visual imagery.)

 Though I mock my attempt today the lesson was comforting.  I don't have to limit myself to the DVD.  I don't like a movement I can walk away and still exercise to something else.  The choices are mine for my HealthFULL Journey.  An unsuccessful attempt is not a failure, it is just an unsuccessful attempt that will lead to fruitful rewards down the line.  The challenge will motivate me or push me to find something more worth my time. 

May your HealthFULL Journey be adaptable to your needs and goals.  Take a moment to figure out your true goal and find the situation that best fulfills your solution.  'Til we meet again. . .

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Sleep means more than ZZZZZZZZ's

I am not the best sleeper.  This is sad to admit but I used to have pride in the fact that I function easily on five hours of sleep.  I convinced myself that it is better for me to sleep an odd amount of hours than a heap of even number of hours.  Bizarre but true.  I used to be able to function on three hours sleep three - four nights a week.  I'm not necessarily the best person I can be (little cranky, little emotional, little paranoid) but for the most part functionable.  Five hours used to be my dream amount of sleep.  (Get it? Dream! :) I was me.  Because that was my average.  Seven was luxury and nine was unbelievable.  If I did three hours three - four in a row I could do a marathon sleep of eleven hours.  In my quest to get healthy in WHOLE kind of way I have read some articles, books, etc. And a lot mention that heavier people tend to carry more weight.  You would think if we are staying up so late we would be burning more calories.  But not the case.  Us fully awake around the clock people tend to eat more and exercise less. Why?  Because we aren't sleeping because we aren't exhausting our systems physically and yet are losing control of our emotions tricking our appetites.  I have read the acronym "HALT" in several books so I am sorry if I am not giving proper credit to who originated this idea.  HALT means to evaluate before you commence eating.  Are you Hurt? Angry? Lonely? or Tired?  and for that reason are grabbing a snack?  If you're hungry go ahead.  Your body is telling you it has burned the calories and is ready to re-fuel.  But usually it is because of the other reasons listed.  When someone is tired they tend to graze without thinking.  Your appetite is ramped and your emotions wild and your control is exhausted due to lack of sleep.  It's amazing how a little rest can up your energy. 

My hubby took morning duty today with our son.  And though I awoke briefly to share a kiss with my two favorite guys I quickly returned to bed because I could.  Wow I had a fire lit ready to do some work.  For my work out I was tempted by my salsa DVD but will attempt that tomorrow.  Today I have been hounded by our two bathrooms needing a good cleaning.  So out I pulled my cleaning supplies and grabbed my son (not altogether).  I used different set -ups so he could watch me work.  The first bathroom was fun because he had a new perspective sitting in the hallway which he has never just sat there. Not much to see but to him it was a whole new destination.  Isn't it funny how we let our task list grow because of laziness, boredom, detestation, and really the project just doesn't take that long.  20 minutes and one bathroom down.  The other still needs the shower clean but otherwise the master bath is done.  It was getting late and my son was getting hungry (or bored or both ) :)  Also got some other projects done and even had dinner ready for hubby when he walked in the door.  Isn't that the nicest feeling in the world?  If you live with someone else and walk in the door after a long day or work, errands, social obligation, and you walk into aromas of supper ready to go.  Heavenly! in my opinion, one last hassle, feeling loved, and time to let go! 

And what is awesome I still have energy to go.  Because of this I had more stable moods and could be there if needed.  When we are too tired we can't take care of ourselves and that also means we certainly can't help those we love.

May your journey help you to Fully or Finally Understand Life by Living which means take time to rest, so that you can recharge and get back out there fully you at your best.  'Til we meet again. . .

Friday, July 8, 2011

The Escape Plan

Do you like to get away?  Vacation?  Staycation?  Anything that changes up our duties and responsibilities?  I like to be in the mix of things as long as I have an escape plan.  It allows me to regroup and feel in control of my life.  I think that is why I have turned to food.  Though the more food I eat the harder it is to hide behind it.  Many complaints and what I think of as statements quickly turn to whines.  Which is sad because I have been so incredibly blessed and truly from the bottom of my heart am grateful.  But when I get overloaded due to the family demands, the daily grind, and the worries and stress I pile upon my shoulders I am seeking my little cubbyhole to escape, let go of the big and little and just refresh. When I was younger, I used to have a "special place" both inside my house and outside my house.   Outside was two parks that were about four blocks away from me.  I could go there and read, sing, act, scream, and just be.  And inside my house I had set up my closet to be my haven.  I would stack up my supplies of books, flashlights, comfy comforts (pillows, blanket) and grab my snack or lunch or pop.  And disappear for an hour or two.  This was no walk in closet but just a little space to escape.  I even had created a light source out of a hanger, a robe tie, and a flashlight to properly illuminate "my place".  Now I have so much more room in my house but none of it feels just mine.  My hubby is fantastic and I love that not only do we share this house but our lives.  But I seek out that nook for just "Suzy" where I can celebrate, whine, cry, meditate, or just be.  I have looked in town, little out of the ordinary restaurants, my house.  And nothing has revealed itself like my playgrounds of youth.  A place with positive memories but not overcrowded with others.  It is part of my journey.  To either discover a let go place or to learn to muddle through life without an escape route.  I think escape routes are good.  We plan them with our family and children in case of a fire.  We plan them with friends or family when we get roped into a party we really don't want to attend (oh you know that you have pleaded with a friend, I will go only on the condition we can leave at my signal - tug of the year, crossed arms, foot taps. )  But then I also see that when we have an escape plan we don't bother working through the crisis.  We just sense trouble and hop along our merry way.  It's good to not feel chaotic but it is a bit sad to not let go.  There is a quote up on a business billboard I pass on my way to the office.  "Only those who risk going too far ever realize how far they truly can go".  I edit myself, don't want too offend, don't want to cause hurt, don't want to get too involved, so I pause.  It is good to filter, but not to block oneself.  So my plan is to find an escape route that doesn't include snacking.  An escape route to bring peace of mind so that I can move forward.

May you feel enough prepared in life to live passionately uninhibited.  'Til we meet again. . .

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Capturing the Prize

Ahh the holidays.  When you're a kid the world is full of magic and the holidays have a way of reminding us of it.  The Fourth of July used to be one of my favoritest of days.  (Yes Favoritest!) It meant a family day having a picnic in a huge park with tons of community games that can only happen in a true home grown event.  Where there are watermelon eating contests, capturing people in park jail for charity and giggles, tossing water balloons, ring toss, and other assorted games with radio DJs spicing up the event with music and talent like shows.  There was an art to dressing up in just the three colors of red, white, and blue. After the picnic the day is to be enjoyed because it is summer and friends are all over the neighborhood. Before dusk friends I would gather some easy to handle snacks, a boombox (So eighties/nineties I realize), and some blankets.  My dad would set up the extension ladder and as dusk begins to settle my friends and I would make several half trips up the ladder to claim all of our loot. Before my friends and I were old enough to "hang out" on the roof, my dad would chaperone or I'd go up with my brother.  There was something so special about being up on the roof.  It certainly wasn't an everyday activity.  But then after we had are giggles and moment of adjusting to the slanted roof we would settle in for the fireworks display.  Together we would ooh and ahh and sing along to the patriotic cheesy music. We proudly stood up with "God Bless the USA".  And when memories are beginning to be made in your mind you don't realize how much you will cherish the moment or those silly but precious traditions. But you do.  After the show we would gather our stuff to head back down the ladder (though it was fun to drop snacks and blankets off the roof).  We then would have our own private display of pretty fireworks (I was not into things that went bang for no other reason than to go bang.)  But "pretties" I appreciated and would occasionally light.  But my favorites were the smoke bombs (bye bye Mosquitoes), glow worms (because how cool is it to see a 1/4 inch pellet grow into 3 - 4 inches), Sparklers (because you can spell your name and your crush's - come on we've all done it!) and the Bloomin' Flowers/Jumpin' Jacks (they're just so pretty!).  But this year I realized how much effort really is put into the holiday magic.  And I am saddened to admit that I opted out.  No family picnic, not even a sparkler for my lil' eight month old (though we did both dress in only red, white, and blue).  But we will.  Today we just had a quiet day at home.  But what event spurned this trip down memory lane.  A toy from a cereal box.  I am trying out different snacks that we'll satisfy my sweet tooth without equaling 2000 calories or will spurn me into eating lots of snacks that still equal mega calories. So with this guideline I have bought some old childhood cereal favorites that happened to be on sale.  And tonight as I grabbed a snack bowl to munch, the toy dropped from the box.  It brought a smile to my lips because how many adults can say they got the toy.  Oh I remember shoving my hand into many of cereal boxes for the prized toy.  And how parents would complain to wait for it to fall naturally.  (Yeah Right!).  But today the toy fell from the cereal I bought for myself.  It reminded me that over the years I have gained patience but I lost that magic and drive to get what I want.  So with my toy in hand I am reclaiming the fun in my life.  It is good to have patience and to be responsible but it's also important to not sacrifice ourselves and our ways to others' expectations. 

May your HealthFULL Journey point you towards your Healthy future while helping you to cherish your past.  'Til we meet again. . .

Sunday, July 3, 2011

Nice long warm up

I was rested and my baby was still resting which means perfect time for a work-out.  I had picked up two DVDs to try new movement from the library.  With a little apprehension and a little giddiness I popped in Mr. Kung Fu. Oh don't worry that's not the name of the DVD.  It was a beginner's DVD for Tai Chi and the narrator/host was David Carradine.  It was fantastic.  There are two parts and I did the thirty minute work out for the mind.  The experience was like completing a thirty minute warm-up/cool-down.  No I didn't burn billions of calories.  But I moved, didn't fret, didn't get frustrated, and let go.  It was nice to not have to give myself a pep talk that I'll be able to catch my breath in less than a minute or stare at the DVD counter - only 12 minutes to go.  This work out was calming and encouraging because I didn't have to modify any of the instructions.  I just followed along.  It was a good DVD to ease back into a daily movement routine.  Also was a great reminder that I like to try new things and appreciate different ideas if I ever want to work out while watching television so I don't feel like such a bump on the log and something else to do besides munch on snacks.

Speaking of munching.  Our little one is starting to eat his veggies and fruits.  Today the plan was to start eating apples (he has tried quite a few of the veggies).  I grabbed the jar, my hubby had the camera and our son seemed confused by the taste.  He's only had veggies before today.  We kept saying how yummy the apples are.  I had tried a quick bite (they were awfully sweet which I thought accounted for the not quite apple flavor).  Our son grew into the taste and he cleaned out that jar.  I looked at the label and the ingredient list caught my eye.  Organic Pears? The food industry is just getting ridiculous using pears for a baby's introduction to apples.  Then I flipped the jar around.  Oh the food industry wasn't to blame for this jar of food.  No mommy grabbed the wrong jar.  So pears were the first fruit for our son.  But this "mommy fog" moment made me think a couple of different things.  My son is a genius to question that this food was not apples.  But also that I had convinced myself that the jar was apples and then even when I tasted the fruit and it tasted off.  I accepted the fact without investigating.  How often am I shoveling food in my mouth because I have told myself it is good or that I like it and really have stopped tasting the food.  Or even allowed myself the chance to let my food taste buds change.  There are a lot of things as a kid not a big fan and a lot of things as a kid as an adult not as yummy (or help the body feel good).  Wouldn't it be sad that my tastes hadn't changed in thirty years?  Don't we get stuck in patterns of all sorts because we used to like the item or hate them?  How many people still have the same favorite color as when they were six?  Is it still truthfully your favorite color or you just tell yourself it is?  How about your favorite food? Let's say your mom made the best spaghetti or lasagna or barbeque chicken or meatloaf (etc. you get the point!), is it still your favorite meal?  Sure they make it when you go home and you enjoy it because it brings back great memories.  But maybe you found your own meatloaf recipe and now that's your favorite but you let your parents think theirs is still number one.  I am not saying that is right or wrong.  But don't we hinder our growth and stand in our own way to keep things simple, non-offensive, time-saving, etc.? That's why we sometimes find ourselves in ruts.  We travel the same path over and over for whatever reason and forget that there are choices involved.  You don't have to drink out of the green coffee cup because you do every morning.  You don't have to stop every Thursday at the local burger joint because you started going there when you got your job.  You don't have to do laundry every Sunday because that was laundry day in your house since you were six.  Again if you love any of these routines then they are not ruts.  You are still choosing these activities because they bring stability, smiles, comfort to your life.  But if you are frustrated with these monotonous actions then choose to change it up.  Treat yourself to a new coffee cup, try a new restaurant on Thursday, or find out if Friday morning laundry lets you feel like you have extra time in your week.  The simplest change can alter your life and remind you that you are still breathing and that choices are a good thing.  They remind us we have freedom, control of our own destiny, and individual preferences that make us unique.

May your HealthFULL Journey be full of wonder as you truly decide your routines, favorites, and free of "ruts". Don't forget to take time to warm up and truly embrace your potential.  'Til we meet again. . .  

Cleaning up my act

I was so excited for Friday night.  My hubby and I were going to party like we were a couple in their mid twenties basically meaning we were childless for a night as a grandma and grandpa offered their services for a night.  Yay us!  Oh so much fun was in store like - eating dinner when we wanted and no scheduling around our son's feedings and bedtime.  We could be as loud as we wanted watching tv or talking.  We could both just relax in separate rooms watch tv, listen to music, play on the computer and no one had to be on monitor duty or entertaining our lil' one.  And we could watch a movie uninterrupted, together!  Crazy times I realize.  I picked up a treat after work and was driving home with a big smile on my face.  I also had a lightbulb moment about my HealthFULL Journey to share with Corey.  I have become obsessed with this journey and myself (my actions, my emotions, my troubles,  me me me, my my my! Blech!) Focus equals great, intensity sometimes beneficial, obsession like Fatal Attraction means disaster!  So Friday I tuned out of all "me" business and started to observe my surroundings and keep things positive. I planned my Friday to be fabulous and myself to be friendly.  Oh I tried and fought my way through frustrating moments and kept my determination to turn outward, focus on my journey but stop obsessing about my bad luck.  I people-watched at the library which was fantastic.  There were some great people to observe.  I delighted in other people's quirks.  Let the Friday festivities begin as I walk into my house and before I can declare "let the good times roll".  I notice the footstool out of place.  Ummmm....Cor is everything alright?  His response "Yeah".  Mine: "Why is the footstool in the foyer?" His reply: "Oh it's really hot in here." Check thermostat - hmm yeah it's 84+ degrees in the house and the air conditioner is set on 70 that is pretty hot! So our romantic/fun night of freedom included the air conditioner man at our house at 8:30 at night, after we had 4 agencies on stand-by.  So this last week we have had the plumber out and the air conditioner people while waiting for the roofers to call back about their availability.  Awesome leaking roof, mushy carpet, and no air circulation.  Fantastic! Still smiling world - try to pi** in my cheerios but I am gonna grit my teeth and grin! We got our movie in and the house officially began to cool.  Simple fix that hubby of course suggested and I shot down instantly.  So with my pizza I ate some humble pie.  But Saturday is a new day.  I was going to exercise and eat healthier. And FOCUS not obsess!  I checked in with the grandparents and planned to work out before my son's arrival but realized how I could get some serious cleaning done with function of both arms and eyes.  So I turned the work out into cleaning.  In an hour I put away two loads of laundry, started another, swept, vacuumed, and played return - items scavenger hunt (returning items from one room to another and when entering drop off room gather items and return to their original spot. For instance 15 books had found their way into our bedroom that belonged upstairs, upstairs had loose socks, garbage, baby and dog toys, and so I returned the toys and then took big garbage outside).  It felt so good to get little things checked off the to-do list and build up a sweat. I could have done exercise by following one of my new library DVDs (which I so excited to try).  But because I was not obsessing on perfect HealthFULL Journey I could keep my focus but realize that yes I have other obligations.  If this isn't to be a diet (which it is not) but a lifestyle change (which it is) then I have to incorporate my efforts and intentions into my real life.  Yes there is time to pull out the DVD as some me time but there are other times to get creative.  Everyday is a lesson on this journey because I am Finally Understanding Life by Living and that means to me to stop being an observer in this world and being an active participant.

May your HealthFULL Journey lead you to focus on what truly is important.  May your journey help strengthen your awareness, awaken your passions, and lead you to true joy. 'Til we meet again. . .