WHAT IF?
I fell in love. . .
I rejoiced greatly in the Lord that at last you renewed your concern for me. Indeed, you were concerned, but you had no opportunity to show it. I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do all this through him who gives me strength. --- Philippians 4:10 - 13
with my own life?
I am a dreamer. I day dream. I create stories. I imagine possibilities. I people watch and wonder. I watch movies and hope that life will pick up the cues. I read to visualize. I problem solve. I invent ideas. I play matchmaker. I want things to connect in ways that click.
These are good things to do sometimes...maybe even a majority of the time. But all the time? Tinkerers get tired, cranky, and feel unresolved much of the time. Because life does not pick up movie cues and ideas that never transfer to material never happen. Dreamers need to either learn how to translate dreams to reality, partner with a doer, or live unresolved. That's a tricky place to live. It's not as tiring as a fence rider who never picks a side. A dreamer knows to follow the clouds or the stars. But it can be a ride of discouragement. The path is long, not smooth, and filled with naysayers who were too discouraged to try or have grown weary themselves. And let's be honest dreamers we get easily distracted, a brighter star or more interesting cloud easily enchants us away from a purpose to yet another dream.
Has anyone else grown weary? Oh dreamer who has grown tired, I feel your weariness. Its like trying to catch butterflies that look so perfect, pristine, and available and as you quiver in anticipation for that amazing capture it flutters away so easily as if there wasn't even a chance of catching that breathless moment of receiving the treasure.
We live in a world full of surveys, contests, tweets, comments, and snapshots. We are asked, pushed, almost ordered to offer our immediate opinions, judgments, thoughts of anything and everything. Of course we are critical of ourselves and others. As advertising is no longer a page in the magazine or a thirty second commercial on television. Companies merge to offer several products every go around, products place themselves within the shows and movies and offered "freebies" and good deals that constantly direct us back to products and services. It is easy to get swept up into consumerism, false needs, and the not good enough syndrome. For most dreamers success is defined opposite of everything they are, have, or know. One too many critics in one's head deflates the dreamer's dreams slowly but surely. And the dreamer who's dreams fade loses themselves. They too catch greedy fever or needy wantitis. You can call it keeping up with the Joneses or that the grass is always greener. But really its fear of disappearing.
A dreamer knows the little things and wants to magnify them to embrace as many hearts as possible. Are you a dreamer? Do you pause before you close the book because of the powerful ending and you want the words to just have a final sigh? Have you sat through the ending credits of a movie because you were too stunned to move? Did you ever wake up from a dream with a sigh and close your eyes again to grasp as much detail from it before you start your day? Was there ever a picture that soothed your soul? Can you remember an invention that you created years ago and you see in reality today? When was the last time you played the What if game of your memorable moments to create a new better life? Where would you imagine is the best place to people watch? Would you like to be a dreamer?
Were any of these questions close to the heart? If so there is a good chancer you fall on the dreamer scale somewhere. But a dreamer tends to tinker past the point worth tinkering or grows tired just short of the finish line and that's where the critic crushes a dreamer's heart. What may have been sweet, cute, or amazing can easily turn bitter, ugly, or grotesque. An unfulfilled dreamer becomes one of the worst critics and nothing is good enough for impossible standards.
I believe I have fallen into that trip. What started as tinkering became opinions that became critiques that grew into beastly judgments and impossible standards. Because misery likes company. Don't get me wrong there are a billion miracles and a gazillion blessings to find in this world. But rose colored glasses get easily hidden when the tar of misery paints one's perspective. Once in awhile I'll catch this beautiful image of my life: my son's giggle, my husband hugging me tightly, a sincere compliment at a true moment of weakness, my dog's wagging tail, or my kitty's in your face demand to be petted, or the phone call from a friend reminding you of your importance. There are so many other amazing moments where God paints the most beautiful rainbow after the rain, or you witness someone's moment(s) of embracing God's true love. Or that God will take the time to remind us how wonderful our lives truly can be when we learn to embrace them in love. Who wants to play a round of the What if game with answers?
What if. . .I'm not perfect?
You're not but that's okay.
What if. . .I get hurt?
You will but you will grow stronger.
What if . . .I fail?
It happens, but success will be that much sweeter.
What if. . .I disappoint someone?
This too will happen but offers lessons in apologies, forgiveness, and choice.
What if. . .I fell in love with my own life?
That would change everything.
May you fall in love with your own life. May blessings and miracles be around every corner. May life grow healthier and FULL as you embrace Feeling Unbelievable & Loving Life. 'Til meet again..
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