Jesus looked at themand said, "For mortals it is impossible, but not for God;
for God all things are possible." -Mark 10:27 NRSV
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| Flyin' High at Sky |
I went back in time - sort of! I revisited the memories of ten years right before I was married. The crazy schedules I kept - the energy and enthusiasm I had for life and how I would need to crash so that I could do it all again. However, there are some differences. I have a fabulous hubby to vent which is more conveniently stashed in my house than a boyfriend halfway across the country or a state way (only a ten minute drive but a state boundary makes it sound more dramatic.) I also have a much stronger alarm clock these days. I remember the days of Snooze making a difference. Now I peek at the Baby Alarm through one eye open with head on pillow and see if the scream level is at a 3 light or a 5 light on monitor. 3 might settle back into sweet snores. A 5 red light means better hustle to my li'l one's room because we are ready to start the day. A decade ago meant if I was home before midnight it was kind of an early night where these days I saw nine on my car's dashboard and I was hemming and hawing how late it got.
And the biggest difference I creak after a night of enthusiasm. I used to work 3 jobs, perform in two different shows, carry on a long distant relationship, and still have time for friends while being active in church and still have energy to burn. Ummm I was lucky if I could have a fifteen minute coherent conversation at night with my hubby without ooooh, owie, and uhhing through my painful creaks as my bones rattled and settled. And I can't even describe the morning routine as I pulled myself to the shower in hopes that the water would moisten and in turn weaken the brittle pains.
And though this week was insane!!! Honestly, more than a tear or two was shed out of pure exhaustion. BUT I wouldn't trade it for the world. Oh I missed tucking in my sweet boy and relaxing at night with amazing hubby. *Breathes in deeply with great anticipation* *Sighing Exhale* I tapped into some precious memories and physically recalled my youth. Forty minutes before VBS started I turned to my hubby with sheer terror "What have I agreed to?" I have been trying to nod with certainty, smile with confidence, and a playful giggle that I got this in the bag. But with less than an hour to go I had horrible stage fright. Do I remember how to corral kids in a fun entertaining way? Can I actually perform with people around once again? (I truly have became hermit-like in some ways and the thought of trying to entertain a crowd seemed foreign.) My hubby looked me in the eye and calmly stated - "This isn't something people just forget - you can do this!" Yup that is one of the many reasons I married this guy. I am a roller coaster that brings excitement ( the fun and the challenges) and he is my carousel (smooth and steady and calming ;) And sure enough with one rough read of the hastily written script we were out onstage and .....it came back!
The skills, the talents, the experience, and the best part - THE THRILL! Oh if you have ever performed and enjoyed it - you know what I am talking about. That moment when the audience smiles because you delighted them - the chuckles as they decide to go for the ride - they're there because they see the sincerity in your choices. It's like magic.....but even cooler - it was all God! I used to perform and was good because I bled, sweated, and cried theatre. But that passion faded as the years past and the skill wasn't practiced. As I sat at my computer at work the abilities to interact with people, kids especially, drained away. And then in an instant dose of VBS the Holy Spirit restored talents that I used to take for granted and for them being abandoned for so long came back with a flourish that only could be at God's Hand. One of the comments I received was a question that tugs at my heart - Did you do this in a past life? I slowly nod even at the thought of that question. Because it does feel a lifetime ago. But it also still feels as amazing as it did then.
Anyone looking for a theatre instructor for elementary age kids? Or a permanent VBS leader year round? :) No takers? Well I'll find with God's help a purpose for this hodge podge of talents.
The above scripture I referenced is the the theme of the SKY VBS package which you can find more information at http://group.com/vbs/sky . But it feels especially fitting to me as I remember this week. My body was tired. My emotions wrought of the woman I am today and the girl I was who had the confidence to utilize the skills needed. My mental capacity overloaded as I switched from Mommy, Wifey, to Auntie Nanny to a VBS Music instructor. And yet - with God's strength I received more compliments than I can recount and am truly humbled. And compliments even for music of all things. I remember in high school being assigned a solo in a musical and laughing out loud at the absurdity - I'm the girl who can't sing. The director didn't laugh. And it hit me like a ton of bricks he was serious. . . and sixteen leaders I am actually teaching others the actions and music. Life sure is funny - don't forget to laugh along the way :)
So after my nightly three hour singing/dancing work out I am wondering what to do next week? My nights sure are going to seem empty. May your HealthFULL Journey make you Feel Unbelievable & Love Life with reminders of who you were and more importantly who you have grown to be. Don't forget to laugh at life's jokes! 'Til we meet again. . .
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