Once upon a time ago I read an article whose topic has kind of stuck with me. Many of us use the expression that every person is unique and yet the article's topic boggled my mind. What is the topic you wonder? Think of your top pet peeves, now think of what sets you off when you hit that agitated point. The article discussed how our triggers are linked to our senses and we all have different limits. For instance certain sounds have me crawling the walls. I am sensitive to pitches and volumes depending on my mood. And sometimes I can't have silence. But it is definitely auditory issues that trigger my moods. Some people have deep emotional memories that are triggered by smells, not all of these memories are good. Perhaps your trigger has a visual connection; bright lights, loud patterns, or dark neutral colors.
This topic has been rambling through my head as my inner critic and my inner champion once again compete. I am excited about this Real Food Challenge. I am paging through recipes to get inspired. I think this challenge will encourage a deeper richer experience on my HealthFULL Journey by providing me some structure with flexibility; a strong foundation without feeling trapped. But then that inner critic starts dropping open ended questions, and then downright yelling my weaknesses so that I am tempted to throw in the towel without even beginning the challenge. I won't be perfect but I'll be closer to my ideal habits. I might feel overwhelmed but I will learn. I might downright fail but if I don't even try than I already failed, so at least trying has to be an improvement. So anxiously, excitedly, and determined I begin to make strides toward this new eating victory.
While my inner critic is running loose I decided I didn't want to give that voice fodder to continue to poke my buttons. I decided to hula with the DVD but without instructions. I have rented several of these exercise DVDs with the option but have been "nervous" to try with music only. I am so scared to fail that it stops and stalls so many of my goals. I am terrified to trust myself. What if I mess up the moves? What if I drop my form? What if....What if ... What if... And finally it hit me, What if! Yes I might miss a step or two, I might jumble the moves, but two incorrect steps is better than sitting on my tushy. Just another marker of my improvements when I do nail a routine. It's not like I am training to teach hula, I am just having fun and shaking my hips. My body is getting stronger but now I have to work through some of the mental hang-ups and emotional blocks. Another hang-up that is stumping me. I get nervous that I can't finish out the exercise so I sometimes stop because I feel like that I won't ever reach the end but instead of trying to finish the movement, I throw up my arms and go ah well I wasn't sure if I could finish. So I am teaching myself to work through the mental stops. And I was able to hold my arms up as long as the hula instructor in the cool down. Last time I gave up because my arms were sore (they were strengthening) and I could imagine seeing it through.
It's like a wacky obstacle course now, I need to push forward but odd obstacles are going to pop up anytime and I just have to be ready. Sometimes I will be successful, some will push me to my limits, but those that challenge me and I still push forward will be my greatest accomplishments.
May your HealthFULL journey identify your successes and your struggles so that your struggles can become your successes. 'Til we meet again. . .
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